I'm back b*tches!

Here's a quote I'm in love with and believe 110%: I don't expect success. I train for it. - Ryan Reynolds in Men's Health magazine April 2009.

I'm back and definitely seeing some abs. My posts are going to be less sap and more action. Bottom line is that, a few weeks ago, I had a total panic attack meltdown. Work was insane, was moving to a new place, the economy was weighing down on everyone around me - especially in my industry. I had chest pains for two days straight and ended up at the doctor's office on day two. I wasn't working out much or eating well or even sleeping. The doctor gave me something to calm me down and then suggested a daily-use anxiety medication.

I tried the daily-use method for eleven days and hated the side effects. I felt out of it, tired, dizzy, and the list goes on. The pills ended up flushed down the toilet after I made a call to the doctor and told her I was done. Also told her I was going to start working out 4-5 days a week because I truly believe exercise and healthy diet can replace most medication [with the exception of any serious health issue]. She agreed with my decision, with the caveat of calling her immediately if I was experiencing any further daily anxiety.

I literally started going 4-5 times a week and feeling amazing. I started taking in the gym like anybody else takes in oxygen. It helps me focus, deal with stress, and simply feel amazing. Am also getting stronger. I usually go in the morning and I never used to be able to lift weights that early in the morning. But, now I just rock it. The weight I can lift is noticably increasing and the amount of cardio I do is way more than I could ever do before.

So, I'm back. But, no more sappy stories about laying on the couch eating chocolate. Sorry. I know that was truly the funny stuff. Failure really is funny, but I'm not feeling very entertaining right now. Spring is here and I feel amazing.